December 14, 2012

In Denial




I don't think there is any other rightful place to be when you lose a dear friend. All the years of friendship with Caitriona, and I counted 30 in all, you never think about final words or the last time we... So I sit here is total denial that a cherished friend is not around the next corner, or ready to tell me about what her 3 boys are up to or how proud or frustrated or adoring she is about them. Even after all the wonderful stories are shared and times spent laughing are reminisced, I will not believe she is not just a phone call away. Our Thursday breakfast ritual, in spite of the other amazing friends at the table, feels so empty. Her voice echos in my mind and heart, her laugh just out of reach. So, if you will forgive my talking to the wind or crying mid sentence, I will continue to be in denial about this deep loss. It is the only place for me to be.


15 comments:

Kaszás Ildikó said...

Részvétem és nagyon sajnálom a veszteséged !!!!!!!!!!444

TesoriTrovati said...

I am so sorry for your loss. There is nothing that can take away the pain of losing someone so dear. I wish for peace in your heart. Enjoy the day. Erin

Kalei's Best Friend said...

I am soo sorry for your loss!. She will be in your heart forever!. ((HUGS))

Zeniswoman said...

Gaea,
This really, really sucks! I wish you much peace for future days... May her love and light always be with you!
much love,
Zeniswoman

Kathy said...

So sorry, loss is so very difficult. Thinking of you.

sasha + max studio said...

Gaea, I'm so sad for you, peace and love and best wishes to you and your dear friend's family.

Pine Ridge Treasures said...

So sorry - I lost my best friend to cancer. It is so hard. My thoughts are with you at this difficult time.

Christine said...

So very sorry for your loss. May her spirit live on in your heart and in your treasured memories.

Patti Van said...

I am so deeply sorry that your friend lost her battle - my prayers are with her family...and you.

Klassy Joolz said...

I'm so sorry for your loss...my heart goes out to you and her family!

Hugs!

Janine said...

So very sorry for your loss. She will live for ever in your heart.

Leah Curtis said...

I'm so very sorry for your loss, Gaea. Good friends always leave bigger holes than they ever filled. I hope you can mourn and heal in your own time.

Hippie Chick Jewelry & Design said...

My heart hurts for you over the loss of your friend. You and her family will be in my thoughts and sympathies as you all try to deal with this loss and move through this difficult time...I am so sorry :(

Cherrie Fick of En La Lumie're said...

Gaea, I just read this. It is a beautiful tribute. I am so sorry. Your heart will heal in time but the memories will last forever. Hugs my friend.

Barbara Lewis said...

I'm so sorry, Gaea. It's very sad and I know you miss your friend. Friends like Caitriona are not easy to find and you can never replace them. You're honoring her by keeping her in that special place in your heart ... a place of a deep bond ... even though you are apart.