I am finding myself in this rut of playing catch up. It has gone on for years. Maybe I pile things on a bit high on my plate of life. Maybe I just don't know how to balance work and home. Either way I find myself in a constant pull between this pile and that and don't ever feel like I am accomplishing much. I am horrified by the mess in my home and studio. I guess the daily grind has ground me down. Where to begin? I'm sure many of us feel like that. Like so many deadlines are looming large and there is no end in sight. I may begin to understand how my 9 year old feels at the end of a long day of doing what the school wants and then comes home and is faced with a double sided math page, a nagging little sister who constantly "gets me in trouble!" and a spelling lists that go on for days. I feel a vacation brewing but always seems just out of reach. Pardon me while a rant a while. It is only Wednesday and I've had quite a week. Yes, that is my 5 year old in the principals office for the second time this year. Don't ask. She's a tough nut and I hope, even though it makes parenting a challenge, that she keeps her spunky, nut self into adulthood. That proverbial middle finger she seems to wave at us may just come in handy down the road when she wants to do her own thing and will not take no for an answer. I want to grow up to be my 5 year old.