January 19, 2011

Where To Begin?

I am finding myself in this rut of playing catch up. It has gone on for years. Maybe I pile things on a bit high on my plate of life. Maybe I just don't know how to balance work and home. Either way I find myself in a constant pull between this pile and that and don't ever feel like I am accomplishing much. I am horrified by the mess in my home and studio. I guess the daily grind has ground me down. Where to begin? I'm sure many of us feel like that. Like so many deadlines are looming large and there is no end in sight. I may begin to understand how my 9 year old feels at the end of a long day of doing what the school wants and then comes home and is faced with a double sided math page, a nagging little sister who constantly "gets me in trouble!" and a spelling lists that go on for days. I feel a vacation brewing but always seems just out of reach. Pardon me while a rant a while. It is only Wednesday and I've had quite a week. Yes, that is my 5 year old in the principals office for the second time this year. Don't ask. She's a tough nut and I hope, even though it makes parenting a challenge, that she keeps her spunky, nut self into adulthood. That proverbial middle finger she seems to wave at us may just come in handy down the road when she wants to do her own thing and will not take no for an answer. I want to grow up to be my 5 year old.

Having said all that, I've got my kiln loaded and on. I've got more bundles ready for the etsy and a cup of mint and chip ice cream ready and waiting. I can do this!

13 comments:

TesoriTrovati said...

You spoke words that are on the tip of my tongue Gaea! I don't have that spunky 5 year old, but I do have a heap of a mess in the studio that is spilling into the family room and the kitchen is a mess and I have taxes to get done like yesterday and no end in sight. And no vacation on the horizon either. I can relate. And it feels good to rant. So rant away! Hang in there, Gaea! Your hearts are lovely and it makes me happy just to see them!
Enjoy the day!
Erin

My Life Under the Bus said...

Oh you are preaching to the choir. I've had my 4 ( including one of my 9 year old twins that was in the principles office last week - who the teacher was nice enough to tell me he wasn't her biggest challenge this year) home for the past week due to all the snow.I hadn't been alone since last wed. and my husband worked all weekend. They've been home for an hour and have been fighting the whole time! My laundry pile is at DEF-CON 5 , I can't seem to get any business stuff done and I also have tax stuff to do aaaaaaaaaaaaargh.....there that feels better.......your not alone!

Alice said...

Oh yes, please don't squash that spunky attitude! This was done to me from the day I was born, and not matter how much I try to change it, I can't.

I feel the same frustration of too many unfinished projects, deadlines looming, towers of paperwork, and so much more. No matter how hard I work to knock them down, more seem to pop up.

Make a list of priorities and stick to it. Decide what projects you can let go and which ones you need to get done. Take a breath. Ask for help.

Mary Welsh Hubbard said...

Don't you just love when the principal calls because your angel is in trouble? My 3 child (a boy) was in the office twice in second grade because first he mooned the entire cafeteria on a dare (traumatizing the entire kindergarten class and all the lunch ladies) and again when he and his friend decided that it would be really funny if they mooned each other across the line of buses on the way home. I understood the problem of mooning but man - it was all I could do not to laugh.

Janet said...

So many things to do and time just slips away my whole house is a Mess! Its not how I keep it but revamping a new work space in a different room and cleaning out the old room, and now my backs really hurting argggh. You are not alone! Your little girl she is a spunky Nut isnt she lol I chuckled when I read that. I agree with Alice about not squishing it! Theres just so many demands today. Try to get things dont little by little. Huggs ox

mairedodd said...

you know gaea - for all i love the bead, wire and metal classes that one can take, you know what i yearn for? somewhere that working artist moms can talk... we are in the same boat and i struggle between the two loves of my life... one love comprising of 3 kids... you are right, you are constantly pulled... it is hard... and so let me offer you support and tell you how proud i am to see you doing what you do...
your daughter? i am so glad that you have the attitude you do about her... we all travel different paths...

Joelle said...

Maggie can come to my homeschool. Middle fingers will be welcome.

For My Sweet Daughter said...

(((hugs)))
I am feeling overwhelmed lately too.
Shannon C

Michelle said...

Not alone on this boat...of course it always seems like the biggies all have to be done at the same time. I own a small bead shop, work part-time (since I need to feed myself, have insurance and clothe myself) as well. I do it all...and never have time for myself. It's a good thing I don't have kids...they would be neglected! I work about 70-80hours a week and personal life? What's that????

Hang in there....the bumps will all smooth out.
Michelle

Silver Parrot said...

Are you somehow secretly living MY life? This sounds exactly like almost everything that's going on with me right now! Here's to vacations for both of us!

Gaea said...

What? You mean I'm not the only one? Shocking! I am certainly in great company with my woes! Thanks for the support! I wish I could have you all over to tea and we could have a nice rant! XO

My Life Under the Bus said...

...would there be chocolate too?

Gaea said...

Extreme chocolate!